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Blogging usually wears me out when i do it for the sake of doing it and not for the love of doing it. I usually write by my heart (that is why most posts are as heavy as the clouds during rainy season) but sometimes I just write because I have to, because it's cool, it's amazing, it's wonderful... whatever. Sometimes I really want to be cool and amazing and wonderful and all. Which meant that when I do write such stuffs, it meant I'm feeling a bit empty and insecure. And that, stresses me out.
This blog is actually made for myself. This is where I put out all my emotions. This is like a vessel where I pour out all the heavy burdens in my heart. So it's more like a diary though at times I conceal specific truths behind words so as not to hurt people. When I got nice feedbacks, I was like, *whew*. I was writing about my life and not all of them are sensible and yet, I get to touch lives. It's amazing things like this could happen. Especially when I myself used to believe there's nothing special about anything I do. It is amazing how I get to touch lives without even meaning to. And with that, I felt grateful.
I've been contemplating these days. I've been thinking. I've been reflecting about life and all. And I realized that the source of life's uncertainties and insecurities come from not knowing our own purpose. Not knowing what on earth we are here for. God has revealed to me what He wants of me. At first, I felt the struggle. My own human weakness drags me down. But later on, I felt how beautiful it is to completely let go and let Him be the one that moves me, be the reason of everything I do. When I learned, saw, heard, and felt how beautiful it is to be with Him, I felt peace that I've never felt before. My worries lessened. And I learn, see, hear and feel things in a whole new different way.
There will be a bit difference in my writing. Because I won't be writing from my own heart anymore. I'll be writing from my own soul. Or so it would seem. :)
May God bless us all. And may we never cease to seek His face in every breathing moment we have. And may we, unworthy of His love, be grateful for our God who was, who is, and is to come. And may we find Him in us and in all the people around us being the strength and the hope we need for this life and the life to come.
This blog is actually made for myself. This is where I put out all my emotions. This is like a vessel where I pour out all the heavy burdens in my heart. So it's more like a diary though at times I conceal specific truths behind words so as not to hurt people. When I got nice feedbacks, I was like, *whew*. I was writing about my life and not all of them are sensible and yet, I get to touch lives. It's amazing things like this could happen. Especially when I myself used to believe there's nothing special about anything I do. It is amazing how I get to touch lives without even meaning to. And with that, I felt grateful.
I've been contemplating these days. I've been thinking. I've been reflecting about life and all. And I realized that the source of life's uncertainties and insecurities come from not knowing our own purpose. Not knowing what on earth we are here for. God has revealed to me what He wants of me. At first, I felt the struggle. My own human weakness drags me down. But later on, I felt how beautiful it is to completely let go and let Him be the one that moves me, be the reason of everything I do. When I learned, saw, heard, and felt how beautiful it is to be with Him, I felt peace that I've never felt before. My worries lessened. And I learn, see, hear and feel things in a whole new different way.
There will be a bit difference in my writing. Because I won't be writing from my own heart anymore. I'll be writing from my own soul. Or so it would seem. :)
May God bless us all. And may we never cease to seek His face in every breathing moment we have. And may we, unworthy of His love, be grateful for our God who was, who is, and is to come. And may we find Him in us and in all the people around us being the strength and the hope we need for this life and the life to come.
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Blessings to you,
~Melody