another wishful thinking

I'm busy... Busy busy busy... My mind is full of things I should do and I should have done and I really should be doing at this certain moment instead of blogging. But I just want to let my thoughts out. :D Yeah, I'm pre-occupied with thoughts that brings so much excitement to my lonely soul.hehe Alright, I'm no lonely soul. I just love to exaggerate.

Anyway, I'm getting ready. I'm packing! haha It's just a matter of months and I'll be home. Yes, finally, HOME. I'll be home! It's just a one month vacation and it may not be enough to recover three years of loneliness but I am really really grateful for this. I mean, after all those tears I cried, all those wishes and prayers I utter each night, finally *whew* I'm opening a present I've always been asking. :) I have my e-ticket with me and everything is in His hands and yeah, I'll be back to where my heart had always been. I kinda love singing the first line of the song Tie A Yellow Ribbon  just the first line which goes I'm comin' home I've done my time. hehe Just that line. I can't keep it off my head! I felt awesome these days and I should get ahead of planning. I have to list my lists else, I'll forget them which I never want to happen. But I'm like, hyperventilating. I don't know where to start. I really should calm myself first. hehehe I'm just so happy I felt like I'm always spinning. This is really strange because I've been so so sad the last few days. It's like, excitement left me and now, it knocked on my door again and I opened it and here I am, spinning.

I'm not sure if I wanted them, my family, to meet me at the airport because my plan was to surprise them. I would just get out from the bus and then I'm home! Like I just went to the city for a day and then I'm back! hahaha but it might not be good for their hearts.hehe... So... I don't know. Someone offered to meet me at the airport (who was very very kind) but I'm not really sure what to do. I'll see what I can see.hehe Ate Geegile is very eager to meet me. She's too persistent. I just wanted to be myself first so I can handle my emotion. I'm not so good at handling them. I don't want to burst in tears amidst all the strangers. Yeah, I'm sort of shy. So... what to do? hehe For the nth time I've asked that to myself I only have one answer: I don't really know. But I think God does. ;) And everything, I'm sure will be perfectly fine.

I'm excited about my first step in my homeland. Yey! (after three long years). The heat of the sun, the hot wind, the cold wind, the rain! The EVERYTHING.hehe All those I missed: our house, our dogs, our cats, our pig, the neighbors cats, the neigbors dogs, the neighbors pigs, .hahaha The trees, the grass, the wind which is bit clouded with dusts, the river! every little thing in every place. The mosquitoes! the flies (ewww), the frogs, the ants, the birds! Much more, the people I love. I would love to write them down one by one but I'm sure I'll be out of space and time.haha I'll probably be reconnecting with old friends, and seeing new faces, cousins, relatives, neighbors, families, crushes... crushes?hehehe  and Getafe... I wanna visit Lola Young. I missed her so much. I missed them all so much.

I need to plan. I got to stop blogging and start planning. And yeah, I got to finish packing! :) My heart sings out for joy today and probably all the days of my life. Because I have realized and I have felt how great is the Lord's love for me. And I want to thank Him for all the blessing He has given. May I be always aware of His goodness and His greatness every single minute of every single day. And may all the people I'm connected with be given the same blessing. And... may all our wishes come true! :)