i am crying

“I am crying not just because i am sad how things have become of now.
I am crying for the things you wished to see, you should not have seen, you could have seen and for those that you did not see.

I am crying for the love you have not felt…and i’m crying most for the love you refused to feel.
I am crying out of anguish… out of rage…out of fear… out of regrets… and remorse of everything you have done.

I am crying for the innocent hearts you’ve broken…and i’m crying most for one heart which doesn’t know it’s already broken…

I am crying for the things you can’t fight for… for the things you are willing to give up and most of all for the things you have given up.
I am crying for the things you took for granted. I have cried for it so much.

I am crying for us and for you…

I am crying over the things i used to laugh at. I am crying over the things that used to make me smile. I am crying for the things i used to cry.

I am crying… because i could no longer keep the pain… that’s why i can’t stop the tears from falling… and i can’t stop myself from crying because i know why i am crying…
And you, too. You knew why… that’s why you are also crying.

And I cry so much because I can’t console you and you can never console me.
I am crying because of you… and the things you are crying for.

I don’t want to cry anymore… not anymore… no sad tears anymore.

But when will you let me cry those happy tears?

And when can i see you cry those happy tears?

When will things be the same again? When will you be the same you so we can cry those happy tears together?

Maybe then i would stop crying…
Maybe then i could start smiling again…
and be able to laugh again…

But when?